Today is Christmas Day, 2014. I am remembering Christmases past when I went to see The Lord of the Rings movies: The Fellowship of the Ring, The Two Towers, The Return of the King, and now The Hobbit.
As I write this, I can hear the Handel’s Messiah music filling the air. I’m in my office gazing out of my window. There’s an oak tree in front of my office window where the squirrels play and eat, and there’s a bird bath at the base of the tree where Blue Jays come to drink and take baths.
This morning, Francisco asked if I wanted to go see The Hobbit today, and I immediately said yes, I would love it! It’s the last of the 3 Hobbit movies, and it struck me that it is absolutely perfect that we go today, Christmas Day.
You see, in 2001, when Fellowship of the Ring was released, I went to see that with Christina, my daughter. I was smack dab in the middle of my dark-night-of-the-soul period.
In 2002, when The Two Towers was released, I went to see it Christmas Day. I was alone that year, and I could so profoundly relate to the story line. I felt very much like I, too, was facing the biggest battle of my life.
Fortunately, I had just learned tapping and was on the road to healing, but I felt so lost and so alone at that point in time. I knew I was being guided, but it was such unfamiliar territory and I truly didn’t know where I was going or what was ahead of me.
One of my gifts to myself that year was this poster, signed by all of the main actors from The Two Towers. I have learned that when you want to manifest something, it is powerful to use totems that will support you in anchoring and integrating the new energies you are calling into your life. That’s what this poster was for me. I could almost feel their support as I worked my way through my own biggest battle.
While I loved all of the characters, I loved Sam Gamgee, in particular. I loved how he was so loyal and devoted to Frodo – no matter what. I wanted a Sam Gamgee in my life!
In 2003, I continued to use tapping to clear the trauma. And I also used it to bring my ideal partner into my life. You can read that story here. Within months, Francisco entered my life, and – how fun is this? – he is very much a Sam Gamgee to me. He’s a Capricorn, who loves family, food, music, and work … and he even has hairy toes! LOL!
In 2003, when The Return of the King was released, I went to see it Christmas Day. That year, Francisco and I were engaged. When he went to see it at a theater in Mexico, he brought me back a wonderful gift: the popcorn box that had the Return of the King promotional material stamped on it. He knew I loved anything Lord of the Rings!
Fast forward to today… here we are in 2014, and the final Hobbit movie has been released. And today, we’re going to go see it. As I looked back at how my own life has transformed since the Fellowship of the Rings movie was released, I am in awe. I am absolutely in awe.
To see where I was and to compare it to where I am now leaves me breathless and profoundly grateful. You see, the pain of that trauma was so great – the shame, the guilt, the shock and the sense of betrayal – it was all so great, that I just had no container to put it into. I had no idea what to do with it, where to go, or how to handle it. It caused me to search everything in my life and really make different decisions.
And then to have been given a gift such as tapping (Emotional Freedom Technique) when I was in the toilet was amazing. It was such a powerful lifeline. I had no idea that it would change my life the way it did. I just knew I was in so much emotional pain that I couldn’t continue that way, and this looked like it could help.
It took a while, but today, I have a husband I adore, business that I love, clients I am passionate about, a connection to the Divine that is so beautiful, a home I love, a daughter who is such a treasure, a mother who is a dear friend, extended family and friends who are precious to me, and a life I truly love. I feel the work I do truly transforms the world around me.
It gives me such hope when I look at the journey I’ve taken these past 14 years. I feel hope for all of us. You see, we are never finished. We are always growing and evolving. We can continue to reach for more beauty, more love, more joy, more abundance, more connection, more grace, more peace. And we will get it!
May your journey be so blessed and beautiful as you share it with the world around you.
Thank you for being a part of mine.